The Day I Remembered What Love Is

Today I was reminded what true love really looks like, I have lost my way and have been wondering for many years now. I went our for breakfast and ran into some old friends, they were there with their first child and a second on the way. My first thought, they hadn't change one bit in the 6 years that have past, they still had that loving feeling that they had when they married. It was amazing, I was amazed. Everything that I have witness/experience in the last few years would have aloud them to be miserable and changed. They were not.

So today I had that moment, the one that reminded me what love really looked like. Its not forced, its not out of convenience. It just is natural. 

Love is something you wait for, you don't force. I see so many people searching, trying to force a connection. They look in all the wrong place. So how do you stumble upon this? I know its not by changing or just accepting,  which I've been guilty of in the past. 

I spent 5 years in a what turned up to be a miserable relationship, I thought she was everything until it ended. I dated another girl for 2 years, thought she was the one. Should have known better I used to leave as soon as she fell asleep to hang out with friends or would stay in the living room to watch TV. That is not love. Then I dated a girl for 8 months, I was crazy about her. It was by far the easiest relationship Ive ever been apart of. The relationship ended and I lost a part of myself, I don't know if she was the one but I do know at least for me this is what love should be....EASY. So Ive spent the last three years confused and searching. I was getting angry and disenchanted with the idea of love. Then today came, it was a moment that will change my outlook. It reminded me that i had lost my way. 

In many ways this post was for me, I realized I've held this in for far to long. I needed to share.